After drowning as a toddler, My childhood was rich with spiritual experiences. I was raised in a household filled with addiction and abuse. As a survival mechanism, I became hypersensitive to the bodies subtle energy, helping me to read through unsafe situations. Because of the continued abuse, emotionally I began to shut down around seven years-old. When fear turned to anger, I left home at twelve.
In those early teen years, I discovered and used the tarot primarily as a prophetic tool helping me manage the constant shuffling in and out of the homes in my community. Social services (CPS) wasn't an accessible tool for me. My complete survival relied on the kindness of strangers and families who chose to take me in. The tarot was a beacon of light shining through the many complexities of my homelessness and own testing substance abuse.
Shortly after my sixteenth birthday, I left my mothers Canadian homeland with nothing but a few boxes and bags to find some semblance of belonging. I was pregnant within my first year in the United States and married in the second. I had chosen an emotionally abusive addict ten years my senior to be my partner. Immediately after my son was born, I had a dramatic emotional shift. I wanted to give my child the best I could even if that meant I had to do it alone. By my eighteenth birthday I was divorced and had begun my journey as a single mother in a homeland I was learning to call my own.
I flew through the GED and spent the next four years successfully climbing my way out of welfare, managing to purchase my own home by twenty-three. When my outside life stabilized, my connection to the Spirit world became restored in a really big way. Initially my gifts were greatly misunderstood, as I believe most peoples are. I spent almost a decade under a heavy blanket of medication fighting mental illnesses I didn't have. As the dosages increased, my connection to my intuition and dream life lessened until it felt like there was nothing inside of me at all.
During these years, I began an arts project recommended to me from a family friend. I was given a few turkey feathers and was asked to paint on them wild turkeys or animals. I quickly graduated from wild turkey feathers to parrot feathers and began my career as an artist. Through five years of steady effort, my work went viral getting published in several books, magazines such as Disney, and featured in hundreds of online articles in over seven different languages.
However the perfect storm had been blending inside and with out. At thirty, my body physically gave out. I began to suffer massive neck issues and chronic cluster migraines. I lost almost all of the feeling in my dominant hand and could no longer paint at the height of my career. Emotionally, I had suffered a breakdown but since have learned to call it a breakthrough as it was in this space I understood I was an empath, a psychic and a medium. That so many of the emotions that moved through me were not of my own and that I was a natural conduit for messages from the spirit world. Understanding this felt like I had remembered the entire truth of my existence. It was the most powerful moment in the reclamation of my true self and changed the entire course of my life completely. I began my long road of healing, self-discovery, and education in learning about what it takes to walk in the light.
I know what it’s like to be the victim and the offender. I know the pain of being stifled and the value of liberation. I have lived with both a grateful heart and have felt so low that I would want to take my own life.
I have suffered, yet it has put me in an extraordinary position of experience. Whether you come with a curious mind or a broken heart, I hope to offer a safe and respectful space to heal, speak about yourself, learn about Spirit, and facilitate meaningful experiences so you can begin to take charge of your life and well-being.
In the sum of my efforts, I hope to be a healthy representative of why we should practice energetic responsibility, experience life through powerful vulnerability, and strive to live standing fully in the authenticity of our true selves.
May we all be blessed to know and love that person wholly.
Certifications & Experience
USUI Reiki i&ii: Colleen Kempf, Indiana 2014
USUI Reiki iiiA: Devon Sanders, Kentucky 2018
Shamanic instructors: 2014 Paige Zafariou
2015 Khi Armand
2016, 2017, 2018 Gina Millard
2016, 2017, 2018 Barbara Bloecher
Shamanic intensives: 2017, 2018 (Barbara Bloecher)
Various shamanic workshops & classes held by Gina Millard & Barbara Bloecher